Down another 1.8 lbs. I was really wanting to be down 2.6 but of course I won't turn my nose up at the 1.8. I am 6/10th of a pound from 35 lbs. I am wanting 40 by Christmas but our last weigh-in before Christmas will be the 17th of December. That means I need to lose 5.6 lbs by then. Not sure if that is going to happen because I don't want to get in that trap of feeling like I am on a diet. That would honestly probably sabotage my goals because when I feel deprived, then when something goes wrong, my first thought is to not mess with this anymore and eat what I want. So, I guess I will focus on hitting the 35 next week and then readjusting from there. I might not hit 40 officially by Christmas but I bet I hit it by Christmas eve here at home and we will take what we can get.
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Tossing the bucket list
I am NOT a quitter but I know when I have to concede that I have too much on my plate. That time has come so to relieve undo stress on myself I am tossing out my fall bucket list. When I made it, I wasn't expecting some of the events in my life that has happened over the past few weeks to happen. A LOT has changed and I don't want a repeat of last Christmas where I was sick and probably mostly due to stress. So, it's gone, we aren't going to worry about it anymore.
I still have several goals to reach, number 1 is to get the Estate stuff for my uncle all finished up before Christmas. That is the main reason I am scrapping "the list". It seems every time I turn around there is something else to think of, remember, take care of. Yesterday it was cancelling the car insurance. I am kicking myself because I should have done that two weeks ago and didn't even think about it until I had two of the cars sold. Hopefully Monday or Tuesday an auto auction company will come and pick up the two cars which means I have to meet them, give them the titles, a copy of the will showing I really have authority to do this and the keys. I will be glad when this is over. Robert and Mom are loading up MOST of the rest of the hogs this morning. We will be down to three sows and 10 babies after today.
I am also downsizing Christmas again this year. I have the mantle done and hope to have the tree up by the end of the day. I will go upstairs and get my Christmas floral arrangement for the coffee table in the living room as well as the baskets of pine cones, sticks and the poinsettia tree for in front of the fireplace. I will change the table cloth because Mom bought herself one at Goodwill and it was way too big for her table and it is beautiful and I plan to put my garland on my porch outside and I think I will call it done. I am just not in the mood this year and the fact is, nobody is coming until Christmas eve around 10 and then they will be leaving around 10 the next morning. My guys couldn't care less and so I believe I just think I have to do what I have to do to keep up with what a person is supposed to do. Anyway, hopefully by the day's end, my decorating will be done.
Honestly, I feel like I am depressed, I'm not really excited about anything right now. I think just getting through the rest of this year and getting on with a new start will be a good thing.
I still have several goals to reach, number 1 is to get the Estate stuff for my uncle all finished up before Christmas. That is the main reason I am scrapping "the list". It seems every time I turn around there is something else to think of, remember, take care of. Yesterday it was cancelling the car insurance. I am kicking myself because I should have done that two weeks ago and didn't even think about it until I had two of the cars sold. Hopefully Monday or Tuesday an auto auction company will come and pick up the two cars which means I have to meet them, give them the titles, a copy of the will showing I really have authority to do this and the keys. I will be glad when this is over. Robert and Mom are loading up MOST of the rest of the hogs this morning. We will be down to three sows and 10 babies after today.
I am also downsizing Christmas again this year. I have the mantle done and hope to have the tree up by the end of the day. I will go upstairs and get my Christmas floral arrangement for the coffee table in the living room as well as the baskets of pine cones, sticks and the poinsettia tree for in front of the fireplace. I will change the table cloth because Mom bought herself one at Goodwill and it was way too big for her table and it is beautiful and I plan to put my garland on my porch outside and I think I will call it done. I am just not in the mood this year and the fact is, nobody is coming until Christmas eve around 10 and then they will be leaving around 10 the next morning. My guys couldn't care less and so I believe I just think I have to do what I have to do to keep up with what a person is supposed to do. Anyway, hopefully by the day's end, my decorating will be done.
Honestly, I feel like I am depressed, I'm not really excited about anything right now. I think just getting through the rest of this year and getting on with a new start will be a good thing.
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
The Weekly Weight Watching
I'm back on track, woo hoo!!! Down 32.6 lbs last night, my goal is to hit 40 by Christmas. One of my BFF's just made it over the 50 mark. So very proud of her too! Way to go Dani! She is very close to where she wants to be. I also measured this morning, I have lost 4 inches off my hips, 4.5 inches off my waist and 6 inches off my chest since July 30th.
I made my Christmas plan this morning, I want to be down 40 lbs by Christmas and I know if I set my mind to it, I can do it. My activelink has gotten a workout the last few days, I have hit 100% everyday since Friday and my plans are to do that at least 5 out of 7 days every week. That makes it easier for the weight to feel like it is falling off.
I know I have mentioned the ultimate goal before, size 12. When I hit size 12, I am buying myself a car. I am thinking new but if I find the exact one I want used and can save some money, I will probably go for it. Here is a picture of actually, a used one, identical to what I want....
I will save what it looks like with the top down when I get closer to goal. I am really kinda shooting for my birthday next August. For the first time in years though, I can see it is possible to do this. I have never put my mind to it like this before and quite honestly I have just never put my personal well being that high on the priority list before and eventhough it feels weird to worry about what I want and need, I really do know it is healthier than putting it all off and not caring. I think my biggest thing is this is the first time I have EVER lost weight without some form of drugs involved. I used Phen-phen when Robert was little, I made it to a size 10, just to watch myself gain 10 lbs in a week when I was off of it because I never learned to eat differently, just to let the pill say I was full when my body wouldn't. When I went off the pill, I went right back to my old ways. This time, I am making my own new "old ways" which is really a feeling of accomplishment all by itself.
I made my Christmas plan this morning, I want to be down 40 lbs by Christmas and I know if I set my mind to it, I can do it. My activelink has gotten a workout the last few days, I have hit 100% everyday since Friday and my plans are to do that at least 5 out of 7 days every week. That makes it easier for the weight to feel like it is falling off.
I know I have mentioned the ultimate goal before, size 12. When I hit size 12, I am buying myself a car. I am thinking new but if I find the exact one I want used and can save some money, I will probably go for it. Here is a picture of actually, a used one, identical to what I want....
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Blue Man Group
I think you could say we had a perfect Black Friday. Robert and I left around 10 Friday morning and headed to St. Louis. Our first stop was St. Louis Mills, which is apparently now "St. Louis Outlet Mall", don't know what happened there but the stores are still the same so I guess it's no big deal. We went and ate at Chevy's, I ate too many chips, way too many chips, which explains why I had shrimp for lunch, a french dip from Arby's for supper, got 150% on my activelink and was STILL up 2 lbs this morning. Today I am going easy on everything as far as eating, I have got to get this under control before Monday!
After lunch we walked the entire mall, if you have ever been there you know it's huge. We found a few bargains at Bed, Bath and Beyond, Bath and Body Works, and the Croc store. We went to play black light mini-golf and then I whooped Robert in air hockey (7-0, yep, I still got it!). After a visit to Cinnabon (Robert ate, I didn't), we moved along.
We went in search of Harbor Freight and I did some actual Christmas shopping for the kid as well as hitting Family Christian Store and finding tons of bargains. We still had a little time left and I remembered that years and years ago, there was a JC Penney outlet store somewhere. I found it and picked up a few more great deals. After eating supper at Arby's we headed for the Fox. The last two times we have been there, we have found awesome spots in the parking garage just across from the door we always come out of. This time was no different, we were probably 20 steps from the door to the van.
So, we go in, find our awesome seats--5 rows back, two off from center and wait to start the show. At the very beginning of the show, there are these big lighted message boards. So it starts out, "May I have your attention please, may I have your attention please, if I have your attention, please yell". We did. So it went on to tell us there were some very special guests in the audience, Olympic medalist Laura somebody--sorry, can't remember, we all told her congratulations. Then we moved on to this guy who was one of the first civilian visitors to space, also telling him Congrats. Then they pointed out this guy name Philip who was just an ordinary Joe but we told him we were glad he was there. Then the freaky part happened.
The board says, "We have heard that Mindy Browning has a headache, let's all help Mindy get rid of her headache," Everybody tell Mindy to shut her eyes, "Shut your eyes Mindy", now tell her to pretend she is in a meadow, "Pretend your in a meadow", now tell her there is a cow, "There is a cow", now tell her to kill the cow, "Kill the cow". Okay, yes, the whole thing was more than a bit surreal and yes, it really did happen. Directly after that, they started the show.
I was asked to take pictures but they wouldn't let us. They had a meet and greet afterwards but we had done that when we were in Chicago and we knew we had a 2 hour drive home so we skipped it. So, here is a picture of me and Robert at the Fox....
and here is a video of one of the parts we saw (this was in Orlando but it was exactly the same....
It was a really, really cool night and then to top it off, we pulled in the drive at 11:55, thankfully, Robert drove home so I had a nice nap to boot.
After lunch we walked the entire mall, if you have ever been there you know it's huge. We found a few bargains at Bed, Bath and Beyond, Bath and Body Works, and the Croc store. We went to play black light mini-golf and then I whooped Robert in air hockey (7-0, yep, I still got it!). After a visit to Cinnabon (Robert ate, I didn't), we moved along.
We went in search of Harbor Freight and I did some actual Christmas shopping for the kid as well as hitting Family Christian Store and finding tons of bargains. We still had a little time left and I remembered that years and years ago, there was a JC Penney outlet store somewhere. I found it and picked up a few more great deals. After eating supper at Arby's we headed for the Fox. The last two times we have been there, we have found awesome spots in the parking garage just across from the door we always come out of. This time was no different, we were probably 20 steps from the door to the van.
So, we go in, find our awesome seats--5 rows back, two off from center and wait to start the show. At the very beginning of the show, there are these big lighted message boards. So it starts out, "May I have your attention please, may I have your attention please, if I have your attention, please yell". We did. So it went on to tell us there were some very special guests in the audience, Olympic medalist Laura somebody--sorry, can't remember, we all told her congratulations. Then we moved on to this guy who was one of the first civilian visitors to space, also telling him Congrats. Then they pointed out this guy name Philip who was just an ordinary Joe but we told him we were glad he was there. Then the freaky part happened.
The board says, "We have heard that Mindy Browning has a headache, let's all help Mindy get rid of her headache," Everybody tell Mindy to shut her eyes, "Shut your eyes Mindy", now tell her to pretend she is in a meadow, "Pretend your in a meadow", now tell her there is a cow, "There is a cow", now tell her to kill the cow, "Kill the cow". Okay, yes, the whole thing was more than a bit surreal and yes, it really did happen. Directly after that, they started the show.
I was asked to take pictures but they wouldn't let us. They had a meet and greet afterwards but we had done that when we were in Chicago and we knew we had a 2 hour drive home so we skipped it. So, here is a picture of me and Robert at the Fox....
and here is a video of one of the parts we saw (this was in Orlando but it was exactly the same....
It was a really, really cool night and then to top it off, we pulled in the drive at 11:55, thankfully, Robert drove home so I had a nice nap to boot.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Up a pound
I really didn't think that was bad for everything I had going on. I will work harder this week. I was really allowing myself two pounds so in some warped little way, this was a victory!
Anyway, short and sweet, but past my bedtime.
Anyway, short and sweet, but past my bedtime.
Monday, November 19, 2012
Silence
Very seldom a word in my vocabulary, it is what it is and the last few days it is what I have felt like. I use the "10-second" quote so much but truly, a week ago last Friday morning, on November 9th, I had a 10 second moment. Robert and I had just finished reading Our Daily Bread for the morning and was just getting ready to pray when the phone rang. 7:10 a.m., when I looked at the number and saw it was my mom, there were no alarm bells or anything. I assumed she wanted to tell me she was off to somewhere and wouldn't be at home at 7:30 when I called on my way to work. As I answered the phone I could tell her first words were filled with tears, so my thought then was something had happened to her dog. Mandy is fine, my Uncle Junior was not. Her sentence, "they found Uncle Junie dead". I don't really remember anything except saying I was on my way, telling Robert, running in the bedroom and telling Andrew and then I was out the door. What a shock to the system. I actually think we all went through the next few days on autopilot, looking back, I remember things but it was really a big blur. So, over the last week, I have sat down several times to blog and just didn't even know where to start.
My uncle was very special to me, we often butted heads but I think we both made a sport out of it, I can't tell you how much I will miss that. To top it off, he left the business of taking care of his estate to me. My uncle may have looked like a country bumpkin but when it came to his finances, he kept good care of stuff and had things in good order. The fact that he trusted me with making sure everything was taken care of after he was gone has been an honor. I worried about how things would go until I went to the lawyer and as I said, he had done everything right, he had a will, he had already deeded all the ground separate from the will and it looks like once the pigs are all sold, we can pretty well wrap things up.
So, I have so many things I would love to say but I just won't. It is time to move on and find my new normal, and more importantly help my mom find hers because she had not went 48 hours without seeing her brother for a long time and she is going to have a lot of gaps to fill.
Last week, I went to Weight Watchers. I had really been good through the weekend and even after the dinner that Mike Saathoff had for us, I had hit my 30 lb mark. This last week though, I just quit caring, I didn't want to workout, I didn't want to track, basically, I wanted to eat and sleep and that I did. Tonight I get to pay for that. I wasn't going to weigh, I was just going to go, but I think a part of me needs to see what 1 week of not caring can do to me because I am going to have to care for the rest of my life. So, I am hoping it is not more than 2 lbs but I am also giving myself permission to accept it and go on, making this coming week one of the best I have had for a while.
So, now that I have made this post and broken the silence, I can go on.
and I will....
My uncle was very special to me, we often butted heads but I think we both made a sport out of it, I can't tell you how much I will miss that. To top it off, he left the business of taking care of his estate to me. My uncle may have looked like a country bumpkin but when it came to his finances, he kept good care of stuff and had things in good order. The fact that he trusted me with making sure everything was taken care of after he was gone has been an honor. I worried about how things would go until I went to the lawyer and as I said, he had done everything right, he had a will, he had already deeded all the ground separate from the will and it looks like once the pigs are all sold, we can pretty well wrap things up.
So, I have so many things I would love to say but I just won't. It is time to move on and find my new normal, and more importantly help my mom find hers because she had not went 48 hours without seeing her brother for a long time and she is going to have a lot of gaps to fill.
Last week, I went to Weight Watchers. I had really been good through the weekend and even after the dinner that Mike Saathoff had for us, I had hit my 30 lb mark. This last week though, I just quit caring, I didn't want to workout, I didn't want to track, basically, I wanted to eat and sleep and that I did. Tonight I get to pay for that. I wasn't going to weigh, I was just going to go, but I think a part of me needs to see what 1 week of not caring can do to me because I am going to have to care for the rest of my life. So, I am hoping it is not more than 2 lbs but I am also giving myself permission to accept it and go on, making this coming week one of the best I have had for a while.
So, now that I have made this post and broken the silence, I can go on.
and I will....
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
What is up with the Bucket List?
1. Tree cut out of front yard
2. Robert's car scrapbook FINISHED
3. Set aside a regular scrapnight, I'm thinking Monday
6. Exercise room finished
7. Laundry room finished
8. Scrap area cleaned up
11. Make Robert's vest, getting time for it, maybe I will do it now.
12. Finish our headboard with Andrew (or stay on Andrew to get it made!)
13. Plant trees
14. Redo the kitchen floor
15. touch up paint on inside of house.
16. Make Christmas presents for friends
17. Get a manicure and a pedicure
18. Start making plans for front bathroom
19. bulbs dug up.
Okay, so I have a lot left to do, in my defense, I took on another project at work that takes me to Springfield once a week which means everything I was barely getting done in 5 days, I have to fit into 4, which means I have spent several evenings at work.
Saturday, I asked God why I wasn't able to get as much done in a day as I used to and his response (it might as well been said outloud because I heard it that plainly) was "Because you decided you didn't have time to spend your first waking moments with Me". So I went back to my own Bible Study of a morning instead of the just the 10 minutes I spend with Robert doing Our Daily Bread and it made a difference even just yesterday. SO, I have a new resolve to get all of these things taken care of!
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